Life

Home

2009-04-17T09:21:00.000-07:00

just like the old times at home

waiting the summer for you to come home

home sweet home....

there's no place like home

waiting you each day to come home

Love... A ruler!

2009-04-17T08:51:00.000-07:00

moments of times are relaying some cold to shiver

lonely times to forget and quiver

barin' and darin' gives lot of fire to be colder

crossed fingers to unveil the panther

dignified love to make it sweeter

just like coffee which brewed hotter

with side dish to be more chiller

love... your such a ruler!

The Wanderer

2009-04-17T08:31:00.000-07:00

the tamed mind in the middle of the day

wandering lift may save the rest of may

flowers in bloom which are lay

to stare in a nuisance which are at bay

leaving you at peace may be save the day

but hurting me in a little way

the little life that may be in may

and live the dusk forever in lay

for you to leave me in next day

hoping to see you at home for each day

gladly to accept you my dear at may

my wanderer love for you to stay

Lost Souls

2009-04-17T08:18:00.000-07:00

i don't want to loose what we have right now

but the mere fact is allegedly still behind us

loving you in silence maybe tamed

but prolonging the feelings subdued in blame

distancing may work but hard to expound

flames of fires declares a big fuzz to found

dazzled and baffled feelings made to burst

in passion and in love to outcast

untimely to veil the lost profound souls

Someday

2009-04-06T23:32:00.000-07:00

every now and then i'm still fascinates on your beauty

lying herein and redeeming of your calmness

your such gorgeous that bothers me

fulfilling my emptiness and out searching myself

which hails me for realization

if theres only a way to ease the pains i've had

just turn around and mesmerize the day

hope to find a way to be with you someday

A Lift

2009-04-02T04:56:00.000-07:00

lift me up from the darkness you've laid me in

induce my pains to forget the sweetness you've done

to a place of peace for am i alone

running away from you is the best thing to do

to find myself in a place of nowhere

and share the passions of memories

conflicting ideas to reminisce

living alone is all i wanna be

Morning Bliss

2009-04-01T03:13:00.000-07:00

As I woke up this morning, a kiss from my forehead awakes me. It was a morning kiss from my son. Every time he woke first he usually does it and say "Morning Mommy". Then he knelt and said his morning prayers. The moment I saw him, his passion to learn on more prayers and doing some stuff as the priest does. He shows this signs at the age of 2. His eagerness to learn some verses, prayers and everything. He said someday he want to be a priest. If the right time comes and he's stick with his dream. I will support and nurture him to attain his dream. But for this moment, I will let him enjoy what the kids want to do, playing and schooling.... I will let him what he want to be... And he will always be my little boy... my little baby...

An "E" for Everything

2009-04-01T02:54:00.000-07:00

It is amazing to think about the word "electronic" is now being mostly used. We call a lot of things "electronic" and we even have a short cut for it "e-".

Before, we only have the mail, now its e-mail, games _ e-games, cards_ e-cards, books_ e- books, dogs and cats_ e-pets. Before traders used to buy and sell goods on the market but now they already do e-trading and e-biz.

The question is what's next? As of the moment we had an "e" for everything. Have we think that all the e-gadget big and small make our life better? That was a fuss to think in the electronic world are overwhelming. The amazement will not come to an end. It looks like "e" is invading everything.

But then at the end of the day, we can always look backward and see if everything electronic really made a difference in our life.

Virtual Pets

2009-03-08T00:48:00.000-08:00

Have you ever remembered the tamagotchi crazed? It was a hipped gadget in 1996 and it was marketed as the original virtual reality pet. It is a tiny hand held LCD video game that comes attached to a key chain. The goal of the game is to simulate the proper care and maintenance of a virtual pet accomplished by doing a certain task, responsibilities including feeding, playing games, scolding, medicating, and cleaning up after the false pet, all via digital commands.

According to the Wikipedia, a digital pet also known as virtual pet or artificial human companion. They are usually kept for companionship or enjoyment.

There were common features of digital pets:

used to give a sense of reality to the user
enhancing playability

Most digipets have certain level of autonomy and unpredictability. The user can interact with pet and the process of personalizing can ake the pet more distinctive.
Interactivity

Classified Interactivity

Short Term - direct interaction or action from the pet.
Long Term - action that affects pet's growth, behavior or life span.

These two interactivity are often combined .
Example of Common Features:

responds to caring
responds to touching
training the pet
supplies
dressing up
competition
meeting other pets
complaining when it needs care

FYI: Eyes in Pictures - Red Spots

2009-03-07T21:36:00.000-08:00

All of us wonder why do eyes in some pictures have red spots on them? If you look like Dracula in a picture. blame the flash of the cam. The red spot on the eyes is the red color from the blood vessels that nourish the eye.

The eyes look red because light from the flash is reflected to the camera lens from the blood vessels in the retinas. The flash unit is located every wear of the lens when the flash goes off, some light goes straight into the eyes of the subject and is reflected right back into the lens.

So if you don't want to see those red eyes, avoid looking directly at the lens during picture taking.

Hold On

2009-02-22T05:33:00.000-08:00

Hold on to the promise

As I set you free

Hold on to the breathe

As I clinch to thee

Hold on to the kiss

As I miss you

Hold on to the dreams we had

As I weave it only for you

Hold on to the love

As I promise YOU, your the only one.

Reasons Behind Smoking

2009-02-22T02:27:00.000-08:00

There were newsletters bragging around the net, commercials on TV, plug-ins on radios, magazine write - ups, newspapers and even on the packs of cigarettes there were warnings. But, those concerns never mind those warnings. I can't blame them because they have reasons why they indulge themselves to smoking.

Guys, correct me if I'm wrong... Just leave your comments below... Some of the reasons are the following:

1. Smoking gives them more energy. They tend to smoke to keep from slowing down. Like for those coffee drinkers, they used to drink 'coz it help them to wake up, get moving when they feel exhausted. The nicotine in tobacco and caffeine in coffee are a stimulants - whose function is to increase the heart rate and blood pressure.

2. They like to touch and handle cigarettes and comfortable with it on their hand.

3. Smoking makes good times better. They feel more comfortable and relaxed. specially in stressful situations.

4. When depression attacks.

5. It's some kind of addiction. Can't live without cigarettes, very much hooked up.

Getting over this obstacles is always depends on the person involved on smoking and he/she the only one can decide whether to quit or not. Moral support from the family is always needed.

A Birthday Wish to My Son

2009-02-22T02:20:00.000-08:00

As you celebrate your Birthday my dear

I'm sending you an angel

To sparkle your day with...

Joy, laughter, and fun

Wishing you a wonderful Birthday

We love you so much, Son!

God Bless You...

Coffee - My Stress Reliver and Its Health Benefits

2009-02-20T08:19:00.000-08:00

Caffeine is my shepherd; I shall not doze.
It maketh me to wake in green pastures:
It leadeth me beyond the sleeping masses.
It restoreth my buzz:
It leadeth me in the paths of consciousness for its name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of addiction,
I will fear no Equal™:
For thou art with me; thy cream and thy sugar they comfort me.
Thou preparest a carafe before me in the presence of The Starbucks:
Thou anointest my day with pep; my mug runneth over.
Surely richness and taste shall follow me all the days of my life:
And I will dwell in the House of Mochas forever.
~Author Unknown

When I'm feeling stressed and down due to my activities as a Mom and a Working Mom... Drinking coffee with cream is one of my hip moment for the day that suits and made me feel comfy and relaxed. When I visit my in - laws, my mother in law used to make me a black coffee whose taste is really savvy...

Coffee, nowadays is one of the most popular beverages worldwide and plays as an important import commodity in the world. Though there were scripts from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coffee which is coffee has good and bad effects to our health.

According to the wikipedia, scientific studies have examined the relationship between coffee consumption and an array of medical conditions. Findings are contradictory as to whether coffee has any specific health benefits, and results are similarly conflicting regarding the negative effects of coffee consumption.

Coffee consumption has been linked to breast size reduction, and taking regular hits of caffeine reduces the risk of breast cancer. Coffee appears to reduce the risk of Alzheimer's disease, Parkinson's disease, heart disease, diabetes mellitus type 2, cirrhosis of the liver, and gout. A longitudinal study in 2009 showed that moderate drinkers of coffee (3-5 cups per day) had lower chances of getting Dementia, in addition to Alzheimer's disease. It increases the risk of acid reflux Some health effects of coffee are due to its caffeine content, as the benefits are only observed in those who drink caffeinated coffee while others appear to be due to other components. For example, the antioxidants in coffee prevent free radicals from causing cell damage. and associated diseases.

Coffee consumption can lead to iron deficiency anemia in mothers and infants. Coffee also interferes with the absorption of supplemental iron.

American scientist Yaser Dorri has suggested that the smell of coffee can restore appetite and refresh olfactory receptors. He suggests that people can regain their appetite after cooking by smelling coffee beans, and that this method can also be used for research animals.

Over 1,000 chemicals have been reported in roasted coffee; more than half of those tested (19/28) are rodent carcinogens. Coffee's negative health effects are often blamed on its caffeine Coffee is no longer thought to be a risk factor for coronary heart disease. Some studies suggest that it may have a mixed effect on short-term memory, by improving it when the information to be recalled is related to the current train of thought but making it more difficult to recall unrelated information. About 10% of people with a moderate daily intake (235 mg per day) reported increased depression and anxiety when caffeine was withdrawn, and about 15% of the general population report having stopped caffeine use completely, citing concern about health and unpleasant side effects. content. Research suggests that drinking caffeinated coffee can cause a temporary increase in the stiffening of arterial walls.

Drinking coffee with moderation alters your worries away and keep on the passion you love as u sipped it in day by day.

Enjoying the Food Habit But Staying Skinny

2009-02-15T08:00:00.000-08:00

One way of enjoying my life is to eat all that I want and craved for. One of it is to eat cakes and chocolates and yet still I'm skinny. Anyway, I've always looked and searched for the right foods to eat which will benefits me much.

My friend gave me a banana cake filled with butter and cream. Yummy food isn't it??? She informed me she used many bananas that helped keep it moist and rich. She replaced the butter with a small amount of oil. She used a whole wheat pastry flour in place of the white flour. Higher in minerals than white flour and contains of fiber rich bran and germ as regular wheat flour. She reduced the amount of whipped cream, the 2nd highest contributor of saturated fats by mixing it to make it thick, stable base of non fat milk, sugar and gelatin and fold them in half as whipped cream.

Thanks to my friend for engaging herself to some food experiments and shares what she learned in making homey sweet cakes... Go friend!

Celebrating Valentine Alone

2009-02-15T06:24:00.000-08:00

Since Valentine's Day had passed and I have no partner to celebrate with. I've spent that day in our home and treat myself with a Chocolate cake and eat it with my son and called my husband.

For those who are still single, here are some tips that may help to celebrate valentine's alone.

1. Schedule a special Valentine's Day date with yourself. Like a mini vacation or set up in a beach.

2. Plan to have a special dinner in a restaurant or prepare it at home. Be creative and adventurous in preparing for it.

3. Watch a movie after eating a sumptuous food you have prepared. One way of relaxing to end up the celebration.

4. Give yourself a gift. Showing that you value your life so much as you love the people who surrounds you. It doesn't matter how much it is but the worth of it.

Chocolates Craving

2009-02-15T06:03:00.000-08:00

Since I was a kid, I'd love to eat chocolates so much whether it is milk, white or dark chocolates. Even on the snacks and deserts it has a chocolate content in cookies, cakes and ice cream. And since its Valentines, i loved that holiday..... It's a treat..

Eating chocolates has a beneficial health effects. Dark chocolate benefits the circulatory system. Other beneficial effects suggested includes anticancer, brain stimulator, cough preventer and anti-diarrhea effects. On the contrary to the benefits, there are also effects due to the large consumptions of chocolates and one of them is to have a high risk of being obese, having an acne, mild lead poisoning for some types of chocolates, and lastly toxicity in animals.

Eating chocolates in moderation is important for to stay healthy and younger feeling!

Essence of Love

2009-02-15T04:36:00.000-08:00

Love is a strong affection and attachment between two people. And it complies in different aspects of the word rather by clarifying the true meaning of the word itself. It is a general expression of positive sentiment, contrasted with hate, less sexual and more emotionally intimate form of romantic overtone, and contrasted with friendship. No matter what the true meaning of love, as long it is impersonal or interpersonal love, or just based it in basic aspects, historical views, types of emotion and among various forms associated with love. Its existence helps to express the freedom of individuality and reached out to explore the true self of it.

Tantrums of Mom

2009-02-09T06:41:00.000-08:00

Being a mom is a one of the most wonderful thing happened to me. Though there were times, I'm quite exhausted and tired for some odd jobs that I have... But when I saw my son's smile and hugged me for a minute, I felt I was recharged again...

My little boy was my inspiration, he was my charm and wealth. He's very active and a smart boy. He is a very highly-charged and inquisitive young minds, live with his frightfully demanding and beyond reasoning temperaments and deal with his huge tantrums and sometimes absolutely unreasonable demands. Though might I say kinda crazy, he dazzled me every time when he does something wrong and bothered me much when I see him crying over something.

How to Prevent Cancer

2009-02-05T07:59:00.000-08:00

Cancer is a scary disease and there is no magic and power you can bestowed once it strikes you. There were two of my relatives were victims of this disease. My cousin who died last Feb. 3, 2009 was a survivor for 6 years. And my Uncle who past away last January 19, 2009, have been detected with this disease just last October 2008. Too scary isn't it? Anyway, here are some things you can do to reduce your risk.

1. Exercise regularly. Just include it in your daily routine.

2. Don't smoke. It's been proven and tested that smoking causes cancer.

3. Eat tomatoes. Tomatoes contains with phytochemicals which reduces the risk of common cancer.

4. Take vitamin D or get 15 minutes of sunshine per day.

5. Drink red wine. Studies have shown that the chemicals in red wine inhibit the development and growth of cancer. Just have a 1 glass a day is very ideal.

6. Keep your weight about average. Being overweight and obese can increase your risk for several cancers.

7. Eat lean meats, and don't eat too much red meat. Eating lots of red meat has been correlated with increased cancer risk. Twice a week is alright but be sure to mix it with some fish, chicken, and pork.

8. Avoid foods with nitrates. Don't eat too much bacon or prepared lunch meats. The chemicals in these foods may increase cancer risk.

9. Eat lots of fruits and vegetables. Studies have shown high consumption of fruits and vegetables can reduce the risk of cancer. Eat lots of apples and oranges. Broccoli is also a must for healthy diet, and throw in some carrots too. All of these foods contain chemicals that will reduce your risk of developing cancer.

10. Think positive and have a good attitude. The fact is, you may do all of these things and still get cancer. Sometimes its caused by genetics or inherited. But you can change the odds by following these steps. At least we done something healthy...

Fashion for Less

2009-02-05T07:14:00.000-08:00

Here are some useful tips to be stylish in a trendy way but in a less cost....

1. Keep your wardrobe simple. Search for a versatile items that you can use in mixed and matched way. Like white or black tee or button down shirt.

2. Use some accessories to add an stylish look or interest to your wardrobe. It's much cheaper to buy rather than buy the complete outfit.

3. Plan ahead. Check out sale and clearance racks its one of the best way to save money on clothes.

4. Don't over look on thrift stores. Just try to sneak around in your area because they are likely to have best merchandise you could ever imagine.

5. Have a wardrobe swap to your friends but be sure it was in good condition or just put it on a garage sale.

With these simple tips you can save your money and earn money from it.

That's Life!

2009-02-04T01:04:00.000-08:00

A new chapter in my life has been opened

Though quite complicated... I've tried

But life is full of compassion at that staged

Although its difficult, I've tried to survived

At that time, I've never thought it could happened

But one thing for sure it left a marked

A picture of loved in my heart and in my mind

Once is enough to be shattered and be noticed

Those feelings of mine which are reassured

How I wish it will not be withered

But my friends loved me much... hated

Cause they don't let me fell beyond

Their brilliant advices made myself uplifted

From the harness of his doubtful loved

Though I've loved him for all he cared

Damn him! He's selfish and made me vanished

Alas! Time came and his betrayal was paid

The gal left him in vain and wounded

Now, I'm alone and aloof, wound was healed

Ready to soar up high and meet the right lad

In Memory of my Uncle

2009-01-31T06:25:00.000-08:00

In behalf of my family, I want to take God for giving us a very supportive Uncle though he past away last January 19, 2009, around 4 A.M. in the morning. He was the youngest brother of my father. He was a kind-hearted and a very approachable guy. Most of the youngsters here in our place knew him so well. He was a kind of a man, you will not able to resist cause he loves my son so much... He played with my son if he has nothing to do at his house or after his visits to my Uncles house.... Then, a news struck us last October, 2008 when we discovered he is suffering from a cancer... His symptoms can't detect his illness. Because he was attack by a severe headache, that was the rarest thing and difficult to explain. It's very hard and painful to see that my Uncle every time I visited him he's holding his tears and controlling his self for not bursting to cry.

I remember him so well when I was a kid, he used to be all out and very vocal for his likes and dislikes. Indeed, he is also a charming guy with a pretty girls all around him but he chose to be single. I've learned a lot from him, my cousins as well. He is like an older brother to us cause he used to played and advise us with brilliant ideas. Have fun and be with us whenever, wherever and whatever we want to do if we we're not in school.

Though the time has come and now he is with our Father Almighty together with my father, GrandMa and GrandPa... hope he may find his peace with them and able to relax for he was suffered by his illness for 3 months... We will let you go and freed you from our hearts...

"We love you so much Uncle.... We will surely missed you and even my son he's still looking up to you.. you'll take care!."

Fire Flies

2009-01-28T19:51:00.000-08:00

I may not be perfect in your eyes

I'm trying be the one before I dies

Capturing the moment before I lies

Your passion makes me rolls the dice

Your love seemed to be cold as ice

The fire started to heat as time flies

Bewildered posts heals the flames of fires

No one will dare to shout their cries

Tingling moments began to arise

As music starts to jive

Blending of dances hits the fires

The love that carried by a fire flies!

A Love for a Lifetime

2009-01-26T07:15:00.000-08:00

As I lay my hand before you

You left and ignore me at once

Trembling in pain subsides in me

To much pain to bear inside

Crumbling for truth and love

Strength of aloneness

Gives me a shiver

Coldness of wildest dream

Persistent of annoyance

Delayed my existence

Waiting for you forever

An everlasting endearment

For a lifetime

Youth's Dream

2009-01-24T00:41:00.000-08:00

Once upon I had a dreamed

A dreamed of youth to be loved

To be loved by a noble man

A noble man worths for his actions

His actions for being independent

Being independent with a timeless flaws

Timeless flaws for his serenity

His serenity for an everlasting love

An everlasting love for once youth's dream

Youth's dream for sanctified eternity

An eternity to be just destiny.....

Acceptance

2009-01-18T07:15:00.001-08:00

For the past I maybe restless and unaware of the things for which I enjoyed so much. My heart beats faster and came to the point that I wanted to go beyond and experiment some things without thinking which it may inflict to my personality. Hard bounces of balls to my head, if i will stooped down or not. Making decisions is not like a game to finish for five minutes but to deal it seriously and accepts the consequences. Board collapses in front of me for just to wake me up in a dream to face the reality.

One thing just crossed my mind, I have to accept all the things for what I have right now and be able to give the love all out for the person I've exchange vows with. Be supportive and prayed for the relationship to run smoothly. Just focus for the re-runs of life that will be beneficial to the family. Just accept wholeheartedly the facts and it won't lead you in the wrong path. It will serves as strengths and inspirations that life is just like that no matter how difficult the trials that may come it will resolve with ease and with peace of mind.

Once you've learned to "Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart. - Marcus Aelius Aurelius".

Friends Re-unite Once Again

2009-01-17T17:33:00.000-08:00

picture taken at Flavor's of China

Last January 15, 2009, me and my college friends were able to met once again. Sharing some experiences and struggles that we've been through for the past few years. Tears of joy and happiness were filled in the air.

Catching up with one another is one of the great fulfillment we've felt during that time. The saddest part is few of our friends we're not able to show up 'cause they we're engaged to some commitments.

We just ate in the restaurant then have a coffee and sipped some red wine in the house of our dear friend. Having fun with them is one of a kind experience. I'll treasure my friends until the end.. They are one of the gems I've had for all my life....

And still I'm hoping that there is an another reunion again...

Dumbness to Goodness???

2008-12-27T23:15:00.000-08:00

I maybe dumb sometimes but I just let go what I feel. Keep hiding myself to all be contented for what I have right now. Happy but not that so far, cause there are some things unsettled. I will let those things free from now just to have peace of mind. Prolonging the situation made me sick and bothered me all the time. This Christmas made me ponder some thoughts that actually struck me, I will try to be a good wife and a mother to my son.

Though there are thongs I've done which is against for my family's will for this year, I'll try to make a change for the coming year to be a better individual. Hope to turned out the things all right for the sake of my family. Sacrifice all the things I've loved and wanted for a long tie and be ready to accept what lies ahead for the happiness of my family.

Yuletide Season

2008-12-27T23:10:00.000-08:00

This lantern was made by my Mom from scrap materials.

This Christmas my family celebrated with our loved ones... Though some of my folks and my husband were not here in the country. We just simply went for a mass and visited my in-laws. Just having a small talks can eased some of my longings. When we're at home, I just opened up my computer and have chit chats to my folks and husband.....

I cant Keep a Secret

2008-12-13T20:58:00.000-08:00

for you

2008-12-13T20:55:00.000-08:00

for so long we've been together

i've realized how much you mean to me

and can't quit to the promised we've shared

lost soul in the middle of nowhere

catching up the special moments

lingering to the shared promises

as long as we live until to the last breathe

i will love you 'till the end

despite of the hang ups i've encountered

it's just you and me matters most

Alone

2008-12-07T08:54:00.000-08:00

It really amazed me when I'm alone in the room

Words imploring and exploring in my thoughts

Weekend nights made me vanished in vain

As a loophole whining in my head

Rolling and tossing in the bed

Helpless thoughts that make me sad

A love that was kept and nurture for a long time

Desire to be with you made me sick

Coldness of whimpering thoughts

Being alone made me shivers

For so doomed in the banquet

Loneliness stuck me in the dark room

A Short Trip

2008-12-07T07:22:00.000-08:00

picture taken as i walk going to home

On my way home, the sky is clear and cloudy and soothes to my senses the cool breeze. My head is kinda running low and bumped into cyclones as I've heard my phone rung and my friend called me just to greet me.

I've realized something that every individual has a unique characteristics. Friends you have known for years and have just met along the way imposed their different nature. Then suddenly, I've remembered my father says to me when I was a kid, "Always be good to everyone and be a good listener. You will meet different persona's along the way and will tangle your mind as you meet them. It's very hard to please other people. Just be simple and rekindle with them. " That's one of the reason why I became silent, shy type individual. A fast learner and a very keen observant in handling some scenario specially in dealing with other people.

Child Care

2008-12-05T02:24:00.000-08:00

As a mom, taking good care of my son is one of the challenges to face... Quite hard for the first time mom's... Thanks for the tips and advices of my Inay's and beloved relatives regarding child care.. They taught me the basic things to do and how to handle things that might sometimes gave us a headaches and tantrums...

Here are some child care tips that I've learned from my folks and from my basic reading through the net....

1. Give your baby a baby massage. It is believed that regular massage help preemies to gain weight; reduce colic in infants and strengthen immune systems of babies. Besides all these benefits, it a pleasure for moms to caress the delicate, soft and tender skin of their newborns and cuddle them.

2. Insuring the car seat safety of young children save children from severe injury or even death during an accident or sudden jerk.

3. A colicky baby cries and whimpers all the time and we are often at their wit's end on how to soothe their child. Colic babies cause severe sleep deprivation, frustration and exhaustion in parents as they worry constantly try to quiet the infant. Colic crying consists of frequent and prolonged outbursts. According to experts, the most common reason for colic is abdominal pain in babies and the two most common reasons that cause tummy ache in infants.

4. Carrying the growing babies might be hard for us. Toddlers, who learn to walk well, often insist on being held and carried by parents. Parents have to understand that they are not just being lazy but there are other factors that prompt them to cry for being carried by adults:
a. like the view they are able to get when their heads are at the same height at ours.
b. all children are conditioned to feel comfort from being held.
c. tend to be more at alert or afraid of new places or strangers and they feel safer and more secure in your strong arms.
d. feel that are paid no attention, if they are at your level and close to your ears, where they can easily talk to you and you will easily listen to whatever they say.

Those were samples tips I've learned and it helps a lot...

for you... my bestfriend!

2008-12-04T07:34:00.000-08:00

my dear... my best friend... I'm so sorry...

it's to late for me to realized those things

i really don't know what you've been through

the last thing i remembered you told me something

but it didn't matter to me that time...

and you left me without any explanation...

it's been four years to be exact, right???

and now i'm in vain, your always there for me...

your comforting arms always ready to lean on me...

your soothing words calms me when I'm frail

you make me laugh when you see me I'm sad

those times is like hell, and its killing me

without you by my side is a nuisance

now i understand, what you've been through!!!

i love you my dear... my bestfriend... my life...

i thank God for having you in my life...

your a blessing... your my guiding light...

and i will cherish you in my entire life

I'm deeply sorry for not letting you know

that I'm so much in love with you back way then...

=3nD=

better to let go

2008-12-04T07:27:00.000-08:00

each single day had passed...

and let myself embraced the time...

a day without thinking...

if i'm doing the right thing...

as it may feels better...

it will be fine...

i can do it without hesitation...

it will ends well....

it really gives me a damn headache...

no one can blame me...

because it was my fault...

i hope it will die naturally...

and let myself back to the reality...

for so long I've tried to let go off my free will...

as if my soul to the one I've never seen for my entire life...

kinda of a heck...

just to punish my self...

and let me felt outrageous for being unfair...

though, it's annoying!....

life is full of surprises....

happy moments to cherish...

and lonely moments to survived and learned for...

indifferent

2008-12-04T07:15:00.001-08:00

every single moment runs out of time...

all decisions were complicated...

ruins every pieces of my whole being...

it knocks me off to the reality...

reality bites! in a fantasy maybe...

i wanna breathe again the way i used to be...

shattered glasses hits me evenly...

and broke me into pieces completely...

because of you...

you made me believe to hold on passionately...

and all along you've cheated me deliberately...

mystic side of me drained to nowhere...

for you to realized that now i'm gone...

to heal the wounded soul for a lifetime...

"Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment
is the only one you know you have for sure." -Oprah Winfrey

Chained love

2008-12-04T07:12:00.000-08:00

i've never thought that it would end this way,

in some ways, it will be one of the dusk which will hay,

an endearing love that will last a day,

for whom its worth the sacrifices will meant to pay..

for just once i'd have been a fool to play,

without knowing how to act the thoughts that they would say,

enormous prices have been slipped away,

to soothe the wounded heart in a game where the cards lay..

reality comes in the truthful way,

no matter how sad it will take, it will helped you gay..

promises of love that lasted a day,

transparency of feelings will forever in lay...

Sit, Back and Relax

2008-12-04T05:54:00.000-08:00

After a tiring week of thoughts and submerged myself in depth reconciliation... I really need to have a quite some time alone in the room and pamper myself to sleep to regain energy... Give myself an ample time to relax and enjoy reading inspirational books and clear my mind of all the stress and rush of the day... Being a full time mom is not easy and handling a small business is some sort in the run which demands a hands on management... A newbie career-oriented mom on a process... A risk taker and self motivated individual on progress...

Here are some tips for Moms on the go on How to Relax:

Make healthy food choices.
Find a quiet place when you are feeling overwhelmed.
Picture your own personal paradise.
Breathe.
Relax in bed. Take a bath, play soft music, and lay down in bed.
Avoid people who are constantly angry or complain.
Stop engaging in behaviors that make you feel guilty.
Learn to prioritize.
Draw a warm bath, light candles around your tub, dim the lights, add bubbles, lavender, or just keep the water plain.
Curl up on your couch with a blanket, and a good book, maybe even a cup of tea or cocoa.
Do yoga;
Go to your local spa for a great massage.
Lay on your bed or sofa, have some soft music playing in the background (or nature CDs).
Go for a walk.
Swim.
Do the activities or hobbies that relax you (fishing, sewing, singing, painting, taking photographs).
Spend time with your pet.
Download ebooks on relaxation.
Think positively.
Practice meditation.
Think of the ocean and how calming the rushing waves crash upon the shore.
Read a book or an article that makes you think.
Smile and laugh They say laughter is the best medicine.
Work!

Bad Dream

2008-11-20T06:30:00.000-08:00

for the thought of having you in my life

is just simply a non-existent contour of memory

illumination of feelings is worthless to express

existence maybe prevail but not forever

aloofness... yes... and a fool maybe...

to be with you is all i wanna be

helpless thoughts ruins my mind

borderlines are hard to find

just to see you in miles and wave goodbye

leaving me in pain in a restless isle....

"Love is the most beautiful of dreams and the worst of nightmares." -Shakespeare

Love... is it in Us?

2008-11-15T23:34:00.000-08:00

wild imaginations are into us

ferocious past still behind us

little connections bypass us

sparks and magics alive for us

momentums of hatred strikes us

swerving of ways ahead us

dreaming and hoping allegedly to ask

wandering of special love that afflicted us

give and take leads us

love... are you still between us?

Life

2008-11-15T08:57:00.000-08:00

The meaning of life constitutes a philosophical question

concerning the purpose and significance of human existence.

It is were life we've make and done everyday...

Encompasses some odds...

Challenges to undergo...

And puzzles to solve...

Life seems so hard enough to hold onto

even in the amidst of challenges which makes us to be a better individual...

Learning to understand and fight for the thoughts...

Beliefs...

And in some may say life is so unfair...

Complicated...

But all we have to do is face the reality

and think if it will do any good to mankind

if we let the things go the way it used to be.