for you... my bestfriend!

my dear... my best friend... I'm so sorry...

it's to late for me to realized those things

i really don't know what you've been through

the last thing i remembered you told me something

but it didn't matter to me that time...

and you left me without any explanation...

it's been four years to be exact, right???

and now i'm in vain, your always there for me...

your comforting arms always ready to lean on me...

your soothing words calms me when I'm frail

you make me laugh when you see me I'm sad

those times is like hell, and its killing me

without you by my side is a nuisance

now i understand, what you've been through!!!

i love you my dear... my bestfriend... my life...

i thank God for having you in my life...

your a blessing... your my guiding light...

and i will cherish you in my entire life

I'm deeply sorry for not letting you know

that I'm so much in love with you back way then...

=3nD=

better to let go

each single day had passed...

and let myself embraced the time...

a day without thinking...

if i'm doing the right thing...

as it may feels better...

it will be fine...

i can do it without hesitation...

it will ends well....

it really gives me a damn headache...

no one can blame me...

because it was my fault...

i hope it will die naturally...

and let myself back to the reality...

for so long I've tried to let go off my free will...

as if my soul to the one I've never seen for my entire life...

kinda of a heck...

just to punish my self...

and let me felt outrageous for being unfair...

though, it's annoying!....

life is full of surprises....

happy moments to cherish...

and lonely moments to survived and learned for...

indifferent

every single moment runs out of time...

all decisions were complicated...

ruins every pieces of my whole being...

it knocks me off to the reality...

reality bites! in a fantasy maybe...

i wanna breathe again the way i used to be...

shattered glasses hits me evenly...

and broke me into pieces completely...

because of you...

you made me believe to hold on passionately...

and all along you've cheated me deliberately...

mystic side of me drained to nowhere...

for you to realized that now i'm gone...

to heal the wounded soul for a lifetime...

"Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment
is the only one you know you have for sure." -Oprah Winfrey

Chained love

i've never thought that it would end this way,

in some ways, it will be one of the dusk which will hay,

an endearing love that will last a day,

for whom its worth the sacrifices will meant to pay..

for just once i'd have been a fool to play,

without knowing how to act the thoughts that they would say,

enormous prices have been slipped away,

to soothe the wounded heart in a game where the cards lay..

reality comes in the truthful way,

no matter how sad it will take, it will helped you gay..

promises of love that lasted a day,

transparency of feelings will forever in lay...

Sit, Back and Relax

After a tiring week of thoughts and submerged myself in depth reconciliation... I really need to have a quite some time alone in the room and pamper myself to sleep to regain energy... Give myself an ample time to relax and enjoy reading inspirational books and clear my mind of all the stress and rush of the day... Being a full time mom is not easy and handling a small business is some sort in the run which demands a hands on management... A newbie career-oriented mom on a process... A risk taker and self motivated individual on progress...

Here are some tips for Moms on the go on How to Relax:

1. Make healthy food choices.
   
2. Find a quiet place when you are feeling overwhelmed.
   
3. Picture your own personal paradise.
   
4. Breathe.
   
5. Relax in bed. Take a bath, play soft music, and lay down in bed.
   
6. Avoid people who are constantly angry or complain.
   
7. Stop engaging in behaviors that make you feel guilty.
   
8. Learn to prioritize.
   
9. Draw a warm bath, light candles around your tub, dim the lights, add bubbles, lavender, or just keep the water plain.
10. Curl up on your couch with a blanket, and a good book, maybe even a cup of tea or cocoa.
11. Do yoga;
    
12. Go to your local spa for a great massage.
13. Lay on your bed or sofa, have some soft music playing in the background (or nature CDs).
    
14. Go for a walk.
    
15. Swim.
    
16. Do the activities or hobbies that relax you (fishing, sewing, singing, painting, taking photographs).
    
17. Spend time with your pet.
    
18. Download ebooks on relaxation.
19. Think positively.
20. Practice meditation.
    
21. Think of the ocean and how calming the rushing waves crash upon the shore.
22. Read a book or an article that makes you think.
    
23. Smile and laugh They say laughter is the best medicine.
    
24. Work!